Divine Understanding
Does God mind if we don’t give him
attention for some periods of time? Is God okay with this kind of neglect?
Yes, but only if that yes is sufficiently
qualified. Taken as it stands, this can be used to justify too many things
(spiritual laziness, selfishness, excessive self-preoccupation, culpable
resistance to deeper thought, excessive procrastination with what’s important,
and countless other things) that are not good. As the Catechism says, prayer
“ought to animate us at every moment. But we tend to forget him who is our life
and our all. This is why the Fathers of the spiritual life in the Deuteronomic
and prophetic traditions insist that prayer is a remembrance of God often
awakened by the memory of the heart: ‘We must remember God more often than we
draw breath.’”
But let’s not forget: God
understands! God is a loving parent who understands the inattentiveness and
self-preoccupation of his children.
God has not put us into this life
primarily to see if we can keep our attention focused on him all the time. God
intended for us to immerse ourselves in the things of this world without, of
course, forgetting that these things are, at the end of the day, passing and
that we’re destined for a life beyond this world. We’re not on this earth to be
always thinking of the eternal, though we’re not on earth either to forget
about the eternal.
However, because the unexamined life
is less than human, we also need to have moments where we try to make God the
centre of our conscious awareness. We need regular moments of explicit prayer,
of meditation, of contemplation, of worship, of Sabbath, of explicit
acknowledgement of God and of explicit gratitude to God. We do need moments
when we make ourselves consciously aware that there is a next life, an eternal
one, beyond this present one.
But, in the end, that’s not in
competition with or in contradiction to our natural focus on the things of this
life, namely, our day-to-day relationships, our families, our work, our
concerns for health, and our natural focus on news, sports, entertainment, and
enjoyment.
These are what naturally draw our
attention and, done in good will and honesty, won’t prevent us from pushing our
attention towards the deeper things and eventually towards God. The great
mystic, St John of the Cross, tells us that, if we’re sincere and honest as we
focus on the mundane things in our lives, deeper things can happen,
unconsciously, under the surface and we will grow closer to God.
For example, the famed monk, Carlo
Carretto, shares this story: After living many years alone as a hermit in the
Sahara desert and spending countless hours in prayer and meditation, he went
back to Italy to visit his mother. She was a woman who had raised a large
family and who had gone through years of her life when she was too burdened
with responsibility and duty to spend much time in explicit prayer.
What Carretto discovered to his
surprise was that she was more contemplative than he was, not because all those
hours of explicit prayer as a monk weren’t good, but because all those selfless
tasks his mother did in raising her family and caring for others were very
good.
And God understands this. God
understands that we’re human, spiritually frail, busy, and instinctually geared
towards the things of this world so that we don’t naturally move towards prayer
and church, and that even when we are at prayer or in church, we’re generally
still distracted, tired, bored, impatient, thinking of other things, and
longing for prayer and church to be over with.
It’s not easy to keep God as the
centre of our conscious attention; but God both knows this and is not
unsympathetic.
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